I was so taken by how cute these little bugz are that I fell down the last 3 stairs while looking at my camera…
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Ahh, the circle of life… every generation like the last…
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Splish splash!
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Monthly Archives: February 2009
Hey creeps :)
I know you’re out there! I finally figured out how to see how many people are coming to my dear old blog 
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Don’t worry, it doesn’t tell me your name, just where you are from. Neat-o! So I know that “Spruce Grove” is Sherrie, and “Calgary” is probably Sku … “Edmonton” could be a lot of people, including myself…
And there’s a “Kelowna” – who do I know from Kelowna??? I thought maybe Stef, but that would be “Cranbrook”…. Hmmm…. And “Ottawa” would be my grampa, you would think, except that he is in Florida right now.
Oooh! So exciting.
Yes, I am a nerd. But if you are going to read my blog without ever posting comments, then I want to be equally creepy in a mutually loving way. And I love all my blog readers, even if I have no idea who you are!
Mwah!!
Gratitudes
*for a walk in Chickakoo park with Sherrie, Levi and Baby Tay (and Leith and the babeez, of course!!)
*for good friends, always there to help out!!
*that the insurance ball is rolling, slowly but surely. Hey, maybe we’ll have a new (to us) vehicle by the time next week’s list rolls around
*one week of two babeez sleeping through the night! Yaaaaaaaaaaaa!!
*natural peanut butter. I don’t know how I ever lived without it
*after much digging, finding a duathlon training program online – for free! There are many available to purchase, but I refuse to spend $45 on something that (technically) I know how to create for myself.
*parents (and in-laws) who are willing to help out and babysit for us
*that I FINALLY have all the requisites to send in to the CSEP office so that I can FINALLY get my CSEP-CPTb certification up to date!!
*on that note – that my bum survived sitting through my first aid class on Saturday, and that I had a cool instructor who got us out of there by 2:45pm, instead of dragging the class out until 5pm!
*Bailey’s and hot chocolate
*70+ outfits for our Preemie Drive
*finding FREE business cards, magnets and pens online! I only paid for shipping & handling ($20 total for 250 cards, 25 magnets and 1 pen!)
*lots of interest being generated in my photography!
*healthy, sweet babeez, both of whom are crawling and both of whom are expecting a top front tooth by their birthday in 2 WEEKS
*episodes of Lost, curled up on the couch
*life, in general
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frust/rated
i’m so frustrated that i don’t even feel like using capital letters today 
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we’re making slow headway on our accident claim. it won’t be over ’til it’s over and we have a new-to-us vehicle parked out back. every day just drags, and i hate the stress that hangs over our house. i’m a fix-it kind of girl, so i don’t like situations that i can’t fix. they make me very uncomfortable.
we did receive a little “help-out” in the mail from my gramma yesterday – much appreciated, especially since she know how much i hate needing help-outs. also much-needed, so double thanks.
still no word on the jobs i applied for on wednesday. we’ll see; maybe my dad can come over this afternoon after work and i can drop a few more resumes off. (does anyone know how to make a little accent over your “e” when you’re typing??) there’s always starbucks looming in the distance, so maybe baby, if i can’t find a restaurant serving job. at least we’d save money on coffee, lol!
i bumped up my personal training ads on kijiji today as well. just one more client, please?
i received my first melaleuca order yesterday!! i’m pretty excited about that. i haven’t started the business end yet, but it’s bubbling away in the preparatory stages. if you are interested in hearing more, let me know! it is a really great opportunity.
what else, what else? i had a nice visit with a friend yesterday. i always love the chance to have some mom-on-mom time. i so rarely see my friends anymore! she also brought some clothes for the preemie drive. i think we are up around 50 outfits so far!! halfway, baby!
and despite the cloud of gloom, i can hear my babeez giggling and saying ‘mama’ upstairs in their cribs, and it makes my heart swell with such sheer happiness that no situation will ever be able to take away from me.
and that, my friends, is an awkward sentence. i have a first aid course tomorrow, but i’ll be back on sunday with some capital letters if you’re lucky
carry on.
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update:
i’m much less grouchy now, but still straying from the use of capital letters… leith and i had a little chat, and after a quick run with the calculator we decided that i would apply at starbucks again. i really, really enjoyed working there, the shifts are incredibly flexible, and the hours are guaranteed (i.e. home by 10:30pm). plus, waitressing makes me very crabby and i feel like i’m selling my soul a little bit. hopefully sbux will take me on again – keep your fingers crossed!
FYI, my photo-hounds :)
I’ve got a little promotion going on over at my photo blog to encourage the end of winter!!
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Check it out, and pass it along to anyone you know!
Meanwhile, here is my favorite picture right now
I’m also a little excited because I found a great website that let me order 250 FREE business cards and a FREE pen, for only the cost of shipping!! Yaaay!
Mid-week Gratitudes…
*for Levi & Sherrie, and their generosity. They have lent us their truck until we can get the insurance, etc. sorted out from Leith’s accident. It is so good to have friends that are open and willing to help out (without even being asked!!)
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*for my parents and Leith’s parents. Both have agreed to help out with babysitting if (and when) I find an evening job. We really appreciate their support!! I don’t know what we would do if our families were far away.
Sleep is for the weak
I am weak.
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But after endless nights of screaming it out (on both sides of the nursery door!), we have had TWO uninterrupted nights! On Monday night, the babeez went down at 8pm. Kit-kat was up once at midnight, but settled with just a back rub instead of a cuddle. Both girls then slept until 8am.
Last night, despite going to bed at 7pm, being shuffled to the Funhouse at 8pm, joining in the visit for an hour or so and then sleeping in Auntie Sherrie’s room, the girls did not cry ONCE. And again, they slept til 8am!
Success!!
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Today is job-hunting day. Wish me luck!! I have a couple of restaurants on my list. I really need this job, so keep your fingers crossed for me.
I *almost* sold my piano … I listed it in the classifieds, just to see if it got any hits. Well, it did, and when the woman wanted to come and buy it today, I panicked and told her it was already sold.
Weak.
But I can’t bear to part with it until it is absolutely necessary. Hopefully I won’t have to.
Tomorrow
…ya gotta hang on ’til tomorrow, come what may
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I’m having a pity party today. Maybe a stress party. I don’t know. I’m just really feeling the crunch right now. I dusted off my hospitality resume today, but I am dreading sending it out. We really, really need a second income right now, but with the babeez it is hard for me to do enough of any one thing to make a difference. I’m still training at the gym, 4 or 5 sessions on a good week. I’m cleaning my mom’s house twice a month. I teach 2 hours of a dance a week. I’ve just signed on with Melaleuca in hopes of making an extra $150/month. But it’s not enough. I need a substantial second income that can really only come from waitressing.
On Saturday, Leith was out running errands and a woman turned left in front of him and essentially totalled his Jeep. We are waiting for her insurance adjuster to come and look at it this week, but it’s a ’99, and the damage seems to add up to more than its book price already. Now we are without a vehicle for him Unfortunately, his job and my job do not allow for us to be a one-car family.
Unfortunately, his job and my job do not allow for us to be a one-car family.The timing just wasn’t great. Not that it’s ever good timing, but we were already sliding from our precarious balance.
Now I am looking at finding a serving job a few nights a week. We are counting on Leith being in town so that we only need the grandparents to help out minimally. I hate being in this position, and I know he hates it even more. It makes you wonder where in life you went wrong. I don’t want to leave the girls every night. I think that breaks my heart the most. There are already 3 nights that we are either home late (for them) or that I don’t put them to bed. Now I am looking at adding another 3 nights. So one night a week, I will kiss their heads before they fall asleep.
I wish I could take back every impulse purchase, every night out at the bar, every mistake I made when I was young and dumb and put it all into a savings account. I know we are blessed, and that we are far from destitute. I have been lucky to stay home with my sweet babeez for as long as I have. If I were on maternity leave, I would be returning to work now anyways, so I really shouldn’t feel so torn. This too shall pass, but in the meantime I need to see that it isn’t forever.
Gratitudes
With all the uncertainty swirling around us now, it is comforting to know that I still have so much to be grateful for:
*most importantly, that Leith was not injured seriously in his car accident yesterday
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*for a fun swim with the Ellis clan for Valentine’s Day!
*for 33 outfits donated so far, and the promise of more on the way!
*for 3 really good runs, 2 really good bikes and a couple of good workouts
*for a roof over our heads and food in the fridge
*that we survived 3 nights without Leith (even though we missed him terribly!!)
*for grandparents that are all willing to babysit and help out when we need them to
*for ice cream with the dance girls today
*for faith, and knowing that this too shall pass
*my family:
Feels like Friday
But it’s not. Hmmm. That means that I am having trouble remembering what I need to do today.
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I just took the SWEETEST video of the babeez playing in their crib. I put them down for a nap about 10 minutes ago, and all I could hear was C-boo laughing hysterically!! I snuck up, opened the door like the stealth ninja I am and recorded 2 minutes of absolute heaven.
I CANNOT GET BLOGGER TO UPLOAD THE VIDEO PROPERLY, so I am having a small temper tantrum.
Please stay tuned….
PS, they are still up there giggling!!
